VALERIEY My best friend told me Never drop no album until I’m tethered That same friend became the reason I’m spiteful on all my records They say My ego should part from my thoughts, I beg to differ Left the valley cause of my own pride No way that my soul would be delivered Yet you like to play the victim And to you, I’m too vindictive But to tell the truth, I’m used to viewing You as too complicit So I live my life as if you Never came into it Pray I learn from my endeavors Hope you know the spite stays in music Yea it do (Chorus) You you you you you You never stay when I need ya You crowd pleaser Everyday you live like I need you You you you you you You always missing your chances It’s just cancer Everyday you live like I need you (Verse 2) Another friend told me Not to let my traumas shape our friendship That same day I lashed out cause I was reminded of who I was friends with It seems the cycles repeat Whenever my stubborn ass can’t listen Blame the flesh and act as if my soul Is hopeless, but I go the distance So I pray that you find yourself Remind yourself you will Sometimes I feel I’m shadowboxing with trauma, against my will So go ahead and throw your boulders Only way to break the borders Only God can see a soldier In myself, so give me closure So we talk it out You tell me what I know, I tell you that you’re lost We argue bout The image you imposed I tell you bout the cost We live in doubt You live your life in gambles Hoping I take apart We break apart Now everytime we cross You tell me talk to God You mean no harm Or so you say, You want to see me change myself, Obey myself You’re led astray I never bend my knees or fold You catching strays So know your place You call it love I call it cold You call it free, I call it sold You call it proof, I call it fate

For (Him) Do you ever wonder why I been so crazy bout ya See competition for ya I tried to tell ya Do you ever wonder why My momma doesn’t like ya So used to lying bout ya It’s complicated So I keep my pace I don’t want yo ass to leave me Aw for goodness sake I just pray that you’re concealing That you compensate, Can’t feel a thing in your hand For once I feel important Not tryna lose my focus (Chorus) Time I Told you how to step I learned it by myself By living for myself For myself so it’s (Verse 2) Do you ever wonder why I want to hold you tighter Got my emotions tied up I tried to show ya Do you ever wonder why Yea Listen You could never rely For she tried to force Pride is knee high My weak mind can be blind to scorn But I b-line for more, yea I b-line for more Yea I spoke to God He told me not to But I got to try He told me Not to intertwine But she been out of line She tryna hold you Let me hold you We can compromise Cause I’m a soldier But I told ya Baby boy We can make it to the chorus But you got to block the noise It’s sum you won’t believe Ain’t mean to come between her My demeanors of a thief but I can See us out I can show you how to step and We can walk it out

You were right Texas is hot at night To keep my cool I’ll run to you It was a good life Where do you need me to go To fly Dar (Intro) We are happy that we Have multi instrumentalist Jru Anthony And Martin on keys I bring to you guys A little ditty By the Mishaps We call Dar Es Salaam Home (Verse 1) I feel in my head I got nowhere to stay (I got your hand When you’re all alone) You been so close to my side This whole time (I hope you staying Real close to home) Still remember The day we met I said “You hands so cold” You said “deal with it” Oh I Need time to Feel it for myself (Feel it for yourself, I wish you listened to me more) (Pre- Chorus) I know it’s scary out there You’re lifestyles a punchline Yeah they’ll stare I’ve seen it all I’m just one call away (Chorus) I don’t wanna waste your time But I need your guidance To my mothers hand I know that she’s not too far But I knew my heart Was full the day we met (Verse 2) I feel in my soul that you want me to change (I want your heart to align with mine) You know in my eyes I got something to hide (One day you will see my side) Still remember the Last time I cried You slapped my head and you told me To feel alright Need time to Feel it for myself (Pre chorus) I know it’s scary out there Yea your lifestyles a punchline Yea they’ll stare (You think I’m fine But I feel everything) I’ve seen it all I’m just one call away (Chorus) I don’t wanna waste your time But I need your guidance To my mothers hand I know that she’s not too far But I knew my heart Was full the day we met (Break) Can you feel it? Can you feel it? We over here The Mishaps here live In Dar Es Salaam I just wanna let my boys Perform a little bit Uh yea (Bridge) Yea now we ain’t got no time Now we ain’t got nun Now we ain’t got no time Now we ain’t got nun

I Can Be You Guess I thought Your empathy was desire Even you can’t love me Like I do you It’s creeps me out Cause I know I can be you Cause I don’t love me too Can’t be by myself love the nightlife Cause I know we made it work When I close my eyes And it creeps me out Cause I know I can be you Cause I don’t love me too (Chorus) I gave you feminine Showed you passionate You ain’t show me nothing Nothing But I love you too much Is there room in your heart Your heart, in your heart (Verse 2) Now your hand in mine Feels wrong All they ever do is go away Always And it creeps me out Cause I know I can be you Cause I don’t love me too Wish you hated me So I have a reason But I took it sober Wish I knew you were friendly Hate I knew that you presence was plenty I can be you Cause I don’t love me too

Step Okay I break apart these niggas That gon talk about my place All it really take is one See how quick I break a front Niggas yap until I Slap these niggas up for acting up Niggas yap until a Pacifist destroys what they become Whachu actin for? You ain’t had no reason nigga I know them screen protected niggas That been thieving with ya (breathe) They ain’t move like me Papa they ain’t move like me So I had to sit these niggas down To get the truth, cause these niggas really Ain’t about they shit Whachu rappin bout ain’t rlly whachu live Whachu askin bout is rlly what you’ll get Yea you rlly about to get what you gon give You better pray to God that Karma rlly ain’t about a bitch You better pray to God That Karma really don’t know who you is Better pray to God That Karma don’t bring trauma to your kids If you step to me, I make you step for me And I won’t rest until the blessings fall Count your days, the curtain call Was calling you to this (Verse 2) Nigga I been here I been crucified I been through the fire Niggas wanna hit me up And tell me bout another nigga Nigga he the prototype I been penalized Wanna see you dead I been praying niggas Do a suicide Im a hypocrite I don’t wanna see another nigga Winning, Nigga pay your debt Nigga you got nothing on me now I know you used to be that guy but now you Lost what what you proud so Imma Kick you while you down and you can Finally stop the frontin you been on Since you were small, cause you ain’t Upper echelon, let me remind you Where you from Maybe it’s because I been fucking up And you been above me A slacker begging for money Naw, begging for you to love me Since you can’t, now I hate you Maybe really I hate me Maybe I miss the times you were there And you’d would berate me Taking my time for granted Everything that we planned Was it too small? Did you really have to let me take that fall? Yea you really make me want to end it all You better pray God that Karma Don’t come back for those involved You better pray to God that Karma Don’t come back for those involved I wanna see you lose your shield Wanna see you lose your crown Wanna see you as yourself And not the one to face the crowd Wanna see you at my feet I wanna see you in a bow

Repent People looking at me wild Cause God been quiet through me Ain’t you that boy who preached so loud And made that holy music? And I can see the reason why You see the blessings truly My parents came into this country Only TZ fluent They built an army up, they taught us all We copied Still surprised my sister done Survived that Kawasaki Still surprised she smiling All in all, that woulda scarred me I guess I thank my auntie, all God’s promises she taught me If we had stresses, vent to God’s ear If we want Santa clause to come early Then God was here If we had beef amongst each other Pastor taught me love my brothers So we’d talk it out, put fists aside Whom shall we fear But I had questions growing up And I had things that I would love But I was taught them shits were demon spawns Folks was mad, delete my drawings But I never minded it As long as I despised the sin I knew that God would take me in I knew my Pops would take me in Middle school came My dubious ways Had got me questioning myself That white boy in my grade Became my first official sign That I’m not okay I talked to my youth pastor, was after I realized I’m Well, He told me it’s the gates or the fire No In between, so I spent days tryna see if I’d acquire epiphanies, but all I got was “if my son was a faggot, nah my son ain’t no faggot. I raised him too well to see him in hell” Niggas never no had to time examine they self pose a certain way, the church will frame you, the verses they’d yell Thinking that they helping, But inside you feel lesser than thou Now you scared to move, you dancing to the raise of a brow Still remember When I came out to you First time that I seen you cry Now every time you try to mend it Feel like it’s a guise To try and pry into my mind And slip in new agendas It’s personal, but you trying so hard And I commend ya (Verse 3) I love you guys too much I guess that’s why i be too scared To let go Or just too scared to come close I’m either two feet away Or two years distant, I know I tried convincing myself That either one came from growth I’ve seen too many ideas That my Brain associates with hope Because I’m scared to die and maybe A heaven could help me cope Letting go of that philosophy was hard for me Harboring all this pain, because if I ain’t got Heaven, whats there to gain Maybe that’s the root Of my attachment issues with many I be scared to hang up telephone calls Because what if any Thing was to happen once I end it Had hope I’d see him call again Died a fews days after talking about accomplishments Tell me that he made he made it somewhere safe, or that he hit them pearly gates, you taught me otherwise, I’m scared he didn’t make it there Now you tryna tell me He gave Us hope and a future What if Zay just had some questions, what the hell does that mean to ya Man I swear I love you guys too much I don’t care if you love me back What’s the point of a heaven If my niggas ain’t there to party What’s the point of my life If niggas interpret it ungodly And I love you guys for that Cause we been through all this shit I know niggas who’s geniuses Ain’t no need for scholarships I know niggas who there for me Even when the family feuds I know niggas who there for me Even when I lose my cool So I got my drive to live We all got torches to hold We ain’t got no time to waste time Cause nigga we getting old In the little time we have Maybe we could grow apart Maybe one of us is next And we can’t repair the scars But Imma try to live like It was 2021 I was Babyfaced and all Y’all was hectic on my them calls but It was all of us, And anything could happen anytime from Now But I guess all I can do is pray we stay, if time allows

Do better You can do better

Ego Pt 1 Will I see my father When I open the bottle And get to the bottom Will i see my momma When I get scared And I open my Bible Will I lose dysphoria When I’m like my brother Or I’m like my sister Allat Will my friends accept me For who I be or should I be like him Allat Should I change myself for the world Or am I just that Nigga Allat Should I say sorry to these niggas Or stand my ground and keep pushing Allat Should I blame myself, even though You took my time for granted Allat Should you say “I love you” Even though time and time it feels back handed Allat Should I repent to god the father Or do you just hate what I said Yea Would you rather I be that side of me Than tell you it’s all in your head Yea You tell me that I need help I prolly do but so do you so Take your truth cause I refuse To tell the truth, I’m just like you I’m lost to my family Lost to my old friends Lost in the stampede Lost to Dibo, lost to Akinseye Lost to my manly Lost to my traumas Lost in my walk I’m lost in my karma But I walk in dishonor Can’t blame it on you Tell the truth, I’m a monster Ego Pt 2 If I’m being honest Only reason you here Is to fill quotas Nigga I can Body your team In 4th quarter Haven’t my dropped my Shit in a year And it’s Still potent Losing track of How many tracks They stay quotin huh Had to switch my pronouns Give ya Motown shit I don’t even cosign What I co-founded I ain’t ever need a shooter, I can do ya like my nigga Soul Khan did to Dumbfounded You got vipers, you got vices But I do shit my on my own wouldn’t recognize me If you saw the shit on my phone Wouldn’t recognize a nigga by The shit I been on Now they wanna throw a peace sign For when I perform yeah Church got me fucked up The world got me fucked up My niggas up north told me Be like Aubrey My niggas down south Told me be more Godly So Nigga wassup Imma be more gaudy Niggas on my timeline Saying I live in sci-fi Any way to cope With the fact I’m making the top 5 Niggas from Minnesota way down to oak cliff And I knew I still I’d be the greatest ever Before this Loose lipped, I move different I’m too gifted Your top 5 begging for beats I’m too livid My friends best advice was to Keep sinning only thing stopping me was I’m too timid Take it back To 2021 When niggas really said We bout to fuck up the summer up But now l cut you off you You cut me off, And I been off it Who’d a thought the fucker would come Back the same year, with apologies Talkin like I’m bout to simmer down Astonishing Niggas wanna tell me it was luck It’s a trauma thing Ian even like to talk my shit Cause it’s dishonoring Niggas rlly turn on you They turn on you, I’m processing Ego pt 3 I got nobody I got nobody

Music.

Mother Said I’m your sunshine But I feel more like the moon Cause one half illuminates The other half died with you You break apart now Have to know you’re around Try not to fret Am I losing my breath tryna just Learn from my feelings Tryna cope with you leaving I got nothing to say Can you give me a sign That you’ll be alright Tell me pick up the pieces I’ll show you a sign And you’ve got nothing to hide Just like that Just like my mama, baby Someday, you’ll be Lost in the sky And you will find I’m alright Just like that Just like mama, baby Went to motherland And you grew weary Said if I we meet again yea Bet on my theory I can see heaven I can see heaven I can see my mother You will find your mother so Learn to be honest Better live for your promise I got nothing to say So just show me a sign That you’ll be alright Tell me pick up the pieces I’ll show you a sign And you’ve got nothing to hide Just like that Just like my mama, baby Someday, you’ll be Lost in the sky And you will find I’m alright Just like that Just like mama, baby Learn from my ego *murmurs* And I do what You say to me yea Show me a sign That you’ll be alright

50021 Hello son this is your pops We ain’t been speaking In sometime Yea the last time that we spoke You said I made you want to die Nevertheless I understand that When you told me you were queer That day echoed through my ears Never meant to share my tears Back when I was in TZ That HIV was like the reaper Ain’t no therapy for me So I still seek to mourn my peers And the stigmas of my fathers father Went deep in my psyche You were born, you were just like me So I panicked son, listen son You’re far from my regret And no matter whats under the Sun I’ll love you til the end Even when I reach the sky above Your momma cries about you And your sister cries to me And your brother been my ear For when I ain’t that strong to sleep It’s business after business Broken, dreamers deal with schemers It’s the same ol joke, believe me When I say it’s hard for me So can you spare one call for me Just spare one call for me We’re an army, we accept With open arms I promise So you live your life as if I never came into it I remember as a kid You wasn’t into music You was an artist, then a chef At each one you were the best Wasn’t til I took your dream I learned that I was foolish So son, i promise you’ll see therapy I promise that you’ll find love I promise that you’ll find God I promise I won’t force the bond You have my face I hate to See it cry, we’ll make it out of this Just plz pick up the phone I hate being alone (Chorus) Make sure that you make it through all that is fated I’m sure you will find me I’m done saving face So can you make sure you make it Through all that is fated I’m sure you will find me I’m done saving face (Verse 2) Hello brother, this your sister Been a minute since I seen you not Pessimistic, your cynic views persist All you do is talk to People on the phone instead of me And whenever you been distant I annoy you so you speak to me It’s hard being the only girl When you were Christian You would teach me bout the wicked world It gave me hope that my suffering Won’t exist on, so whenever I’m pissed off The church became a second home for me To get my shit off But you ain’t been to church And you and poppa fighting It’s hard for me to understand Because you’re not inviting And I just wanna see you All in Paradise, but when I see the Devil expedite demise It keeps me up at night I read the book of Philippians When this happened You think I never see that you’re angry When you be rapping Your room is now a mess I don’t understand depression But I wanna see you put this all to rest So you have my attention Because it felt like We were friends You used to yell, but then Would make make me food to make amends What happened to that person Cause when you go to college I have this fear that this will worsen I don’t know if you’ll miss me but I’ll miss you And I don’t know if you can do this But can you save September 21st For me, exclusive I wanna celebrate my birthday with My family, but Keegan please pick up the phone man, Your family needs you home (Verse 3) Never thought I would see college nigga Shit, I’m a college nigga I promise you I can talk to you I’ll be honest with you I understand Ian been the same since Iowa I’m trying to stay high with ya I can’t even say hi to ya Father, I don’t hate you I was scared of you Well I was scared to disappoint I won’t ever fit your standards I’m just here to make a point And I know I got the answers So I’ll say it all, no holding back What I been on for 2 years past Thought I had a music group We couldn’t keep it mutual, but All my friends, they helped me out We would’ve had a funeral But Jeremiah cleared my doubts I promise you I’m staying now And please do me a favor Can you please tell my momma I’ll be fine momma, I’ll be fine I’m thankful that you raised me up To keep me so defiant I made myself two albums that would lead Me to the peace that’s deep within me And these people rlly love me Pops these people rlly love me Ma And to my sister Depression swaying my mood And let me tell you something It’ll be like I never moved And me and God are tryna work it out It’s all a quest There is good and evil everywhere In church and with the rest of us I still believe that everything in life Is just a test Am I passing? Nah But shit I stay doing my best So any time you’re out of line Or need reminders life is fine I will pick up the phone man You’re never on your own To my momma